I feel separated from myself and decisions and change needed.
A pattern has been established that needs to be scrambled and a new direction sought.
What I thought would work before didn’t and repeating it wont change the result.
Try something different and maybe you will find that extraordinary connection
I feel that life has something magical out there and maybe at this time of year it finally conjures something up 🙂
If you were mine u would be first in the morning and last at night
If you were mine you would feel my hand slide into yours whenever we were close
If you were mine and u thought of me I would be thinking of u
If you were mine I wouldn’t let you go when my arms were round you
If you were mine u wouldn’t want for another as u would always feel me
If you were mine your ship would sail each day and always find safe harbor in me
If you were mine my attention would be you and you and you
If you were mine everytime I hear your name, your voice and feel your presence my being reacts
If you were mine – can I be yours?
Really wanting to be with someone means making them feel special and paying them attention.
Make time for them and let them know you miss them.
Never take them for granted as the moment you do they will be gone.
There is something I remember,
it seems to grow more distant
and
the memory of it fades
but
the desire to find it won’t diminish.
I was watching a UK show last night when the main character is bringing his dad home from hospital and his dad wants to sit and look out into the ocean. He tells his son he just wants to sit and then says to his son “You don’t look do you? You don’t look at the world. You just drive straight through it. Stop. And look.” His dad heads to sit down and his wife says she will sit with him. Next his dad turns and says “Find someone to sit with you. You’re not strong enough to do it on your own. Nobody is. Find someone to sit with you.”
Sometimes the true reflection of your intimacy and closeness with your partner is being able to know they will just sit with you. For those with someone to sit next too – enjoy and dont take for granted.
I continue my search…
Leaving
I know and am so aware your time with me grows shorter
I try to enjoy and focus on your smiles and just being with you
I know it will end and I feel so incredibly sad that I only think about it and tears appear
I wish I lived closer and time with you was more – I wish I had not made my mistakes
I pray u forgive me even if I haven’t forgiven myself
It becomes the hardest day of the year – so much to say but no words come out
Be safe, be happy, miss me a bit
I return home but it’s not the same – what was peaceful before you came is now empty, alone with you gone
I started writing this and adding random thoughts – some are fun and some serious but i may well come back to this idea at some point
Some Fun Thoughts on What I Know :
I know i like to exercise and look after myself but it also makes me tired
I know how old i am because i can read my birth certificate but i also know how old i feel
I know i am a great singer in the car – its a pity no one else does
I know i am British by my passport and license plate
I know i lack hair on my head because of the mirror
I know i don’t like sushi because i tried to eat it
And THEN….
I know i have this unbound desire to love and be loved. I know i don’t trust due to being let down
I know my family and friends love me without having to say it
I know my close friends mean the world to me and i know i would do anything for them
I know i can achieve great things if i feel the desire and enthusiasm – which means i know i can inspire others to great things by awakening their desire
I know i can inspire with my energy and passion and can also be inspired by others
I know when i find my last true partner they will make me happier than i could ever imagine and i know i can do the same for them
I know myself but continue to learn more each day
Don’t judge me from my past, it made me what I am today.
Judge me on what I do today, watch me with my kids, observe me treat everyone with respect.
I make others laugh even at my expense, I listen to my friends and make sure they are a priority.
I show excitement every time I see my kids and plan what will make them smile.
I search out new things to do but also say no to things I don’t like.
I love my family, my kids and my friends and hopefully show them every time we interact.
And as you read this never forget that these words mean nothing unless they are what I act on and live by – judge me then…..
Do you wonder why we meet?
Why I can look at you and just see and hope.
You are alive and present in life.
Can i share ?
Do you wonder why we meet?
You are hurt and fragile and I want to heal.
By healing you, it heals me back
Can I share ?
Do you wonder why we meet?
What binds us together, are we ready for each other
Do you feel? What does it say
Can I share ?
Do you wonder why we meet?
Can you feel the tie? what is making it?
Make it stronger, makes us stronger
Can I share ?
Do you wonder why we meet? / if so can you share?
My Complimentary Being 