Random Thought…

I watch the light appear slowly in the early hours of the morning and another turning of natures clock sees the light grow less each day through this season, and i continue to move with this cycle.

And as we change in our appearance so we change unseen inside and if we listen to ourselves closely and take time to let our thoughts wander we can begin to understand.

I listen and contemplate those changes and slowly it dawns on me that the cycle of time is impacting what I desire and what I want to be. I am moving towards that complimentary being, I am moving towards the understanding of me and the finding of you.

You are providing me a depth to explore, a wanting to grow into you and find us.

Life partner compass 

I was wondering about developing this device to help me find my last partner in life.
I feed in my history and my hopes and dreams and it points the way to find them.
Unfortunately it does not predict the time and distance it will take.

And as much as that continues to disappoint I then realize and smile that the device only has one arrow for one direction – always forward and never back – keep moving.

Loneliness

Loneliness drives me but won’t sustain me
 It directs me to the choices I shouldn’t make
It guides me to darkness within 

I look for the light and companionship to compliment by complex being and change my direction 

Feelings Grow

You sense that feeling grow inside. You are not fooled that you can contain it.

It has the potential to heal you and harm you at the same time.

And yet you let it take hold and swallow you up knowing that fighting it is no good.

Where did it start ? How did it take hold ?

I can’t remember the tipping point and if I could it wouldn’t help me.

I am lost to it and let it envelop me …

Failure 

Failure comes to all of us sometimes whether in our personal life or work life. Failure is viewed through our own lenses and we tend to internalize it and let it devour us. There is no harm in letting that failure take us for a bit as it helps us learn about ourselves and what is means to not be successful. It also can awaken us to look more clearly at what we do have around us and what can be successes that we don’t see and almost take for granted.
Raising our kids, holding down a job, being a friend – because ultimately we turn it around. We go back out with positive intentions and life surprises us with new experiences, new relationships and even greater success.
Sometimes life can build to greater success if you just hit the pause , take a deep breath and appreciate who you have become. 
You will find ‘better’ when you least expect it and at the strangest times 

Illusive Work/Life balance…

I read an article recently about lessons learned in that illusive work/life balance. I so enjoyed it i took the key themes and wrote some of my words around them.

You are as good as those you surround yourself with. I see too many people thinking only about themselves and i have fallen into that trap before. Hence i have learned over time that you can only be successful with the teams you surround yourself with. That goes for work and personal life. Work is about having a team built on mutual respect and trust and who can leave personal egos at the door and find value in working together.

In your personal life it is about surrounding yourself with truly close friends – it isn’t about the numbers but about the closeness of them.

The race is not a sprint but a marathon. Isn’t it always the case that we are in such a hurry for something to happen and sometimes we need to take a breath and enjoy the view and the journey we are on – it will be over before we know it and i want to look around rather than behind and wonder what i missed.

There are things we cannot change such as time – the day will always have 24 hours, the week will have 7 days – we need to accept that things will happen in their own time and for sometimes their own reasons. Take a deep breath and pace yourself.

Keep getting up after you are knocked down. I have had my fair share of falls both personally, career wise and financially. It sucks and you feel so low. For some reason i kept my head down and plowed forward when this happened and it felt really hard at the time. I am more proud of that than most things because it is sometimes too easy to give up.

Giving leads to receiving. Especially as i get older i have learned that giving is so much more fun than receiving and you really need to focus on that. We all have so much we can give, even on a daily basis, that we should always be focused on that. I also believe that if you continue to give then it will pay dividends later. I have also learned to spend more time with friends and family as time is the most precious thing we have to give and we need to ‘spend’ it wisely.

Take time to recovery. We drive ourselves sometimes too hard nowadays in our work and personal life. It seems to be constant running around and little time to actually sit still. I am craving more and more of that time to rest and recover and many of us (including me) will make excuses and not make that time. We need physical breaks (rest in a training schedule is part of the schedule) and mental breaks. The physical ones allow our bodies to recover stronger than before and our mental ones can do the same and free our minds to think wider and freer.

Reading these kinds of articles makes me think and inspires me to look at things differently.

Life’s journey

Your life moves whether you do or not and the road it follows can take many turns. Too many times we wait at those forks in the road for something to happen. I have become aware that waiting only sees you stall and traffic pass you by. 

Stalling in my world means waiting to find my last true love in life. However, this can ensure a lack of making memories with friends and family.

So let life continue and let me travel my road. When that person I am waiting for arrives, then let it be at the right junction and point on the map.