I have and am changing
I need that push to move
I have and am changing
I need that push to move
The world changes and you either feel ahead or behind
And as you watch you reflect or feel transparent
The journey to find feels as though you are on a different plain
Where you are seeing those above or below but not parallel
The gap too big to jump track
Concerned of being left behind you struggle in how to relate
The journey shouldn’t have the be alone but is
We are all looking for instantaneous change – something right now in the moment without the hard work – without the waiting
Our lives expect it – we are being changed by technology to expect it
How do we break free
How do we build our patience
How do we show others the same
We can’t do this alone
I watch the light appear slowly in the early hours of the morning and another turning of natures clock sees the light grow less each day through this season, and i continue to move with this cycle.
And as we change in our appearance so we change unseen inside and if we listen to ourselves closely and take time to let our thoughts wander we can begin to understand.
I listen and contemplate those changes and slowly it dawns on me that the cycle of time is impacting what I desire and what I want to be. I am moving towards that complimentary being, I am moving towards the understanding of me and the finding of you.
You are providing me a depth to explore, a wanting to grow into you and find us.
I feel separated from myself and decisions and change needed.
A pattern has been established that needs to be scrambled and a new direction sought.
What I thought would work before didn’t and repeating it wont change the result.
Try something different and maybe you will find that extraordinary connection
So brave to show up present, so cruel to not.
To feel and relinquish control and yet to then lose it.
It changed in a matter of seconds, ripped my insides and there is no cure.
My mind before so calm and tranquil now won’t let me sleep.
It is one more blow that will lead to my hearts destruction.
Can you feel the excitement under the surface…
It will come as a surprise and creep up on you.
You cant force it or rush it even though we try.
What you can do is be open and welcoming and above all ready
When it comes it will inspire, transform and change you from the inside.
It will grow and make you full and nourish your very core
It will spread throughout and renew you.